"If you begin to understand what you are without trying to change it, then what you are undergoes a transformation." – Jidda Krishnamurti
At the age of 19, I purchased my first home on my own without a cosigner. I had managed to save enough money for my down payment and was earning an adequate amount to ensure the local banker I could make my payments. I loved working and saving and my mom taught me accounting and how to manage my money. My nervous system had linked producing and activity to pleasure.
In my early twenties, I was flying from one activity to the next, like the Tasmanian Devil in the cartoon. I was always multitasking and trying to accomplish something from one of my many lists. I remember walking past my boyfriend at the time; he was sitting on the sofa in our living room. I was a bit annoyed with him for just sitting there, and asked, "What are you doing?" He responded, "Just being." That was not an adequate answer to my personality trained with frantic scurry. So, I explored further and asked what he was thinking about. He responded, "Nothing I am just being."
Unable to relate or comprehend, I hustled about in my productive mode creating as much as I could in each moment. This way of being was driven by my emotional pattern of overwhelm and created an experience of stress. There was always way more to do than time to do it in, and I was unaware of how to manage my state but was committed to getting everything done. Can you relate? I was unable to be present with what I was creating because I always had my to do list flashing through my mind in a fast and furious manner. What I was not aware of at the time was how this frantic mode hindered my productivity.
Almost twenty years later, a new way of being extremely productive and enjoying the process came to me in a way I would have never imagined. One of the first practices I received working with Conscious Transformation was training awareness through spending time in silence with myself. In the beginning, it was not comfortable or natural, and went against everything I believed in at the time. I settled into this new practice and watched the benefits unfold all around me.
Through this mindful practice and others, I began to create a life I loved. I did call my boyfriend from 20 years ago and we had a good laugh about me learning "to be." I shared with him my experience and that I now related to what he was doing back then, and how amazing the practice was. At the time, I thought there was a better way and was not open to trying something outside of what I knew to be the path to success! If you’re certain your way is the best, I invite you to look at your results. Not just what you are accomplishing in your life but also your experience of it and the impact you are having on those around you.
After eight years of training in the practices and system of Conscious Transformation, I have learned very effective tools that train my way of being in life. I have discovered simple ways that enable me to enjoy this journey of life and create whatever I choose in the process. I am no longer scurrying about in order to create fulfillment. Instead I am bringing fulfillment to each thing I engage. The decision to be present in my life and create the experience I choose is yielding a remarkable outcome. My productivity, impact and results continue to expand with increasing joy and fulfillment.
Learning to direct my mind and emotions through these practices has given me the unintended gift of being present, enjoying stillness and the divine journey I am creating. If you’re looking to enhance your outcomes, productivity and most of all your daily experience, I invite you to train from the inside out by dedicating time each day to train your way of being in this world.
Create peace in your life! Join Mandy, and many others, at the Power of Focus Weekend in Denver January 18-20, 2019 and learn to train the mind to embrace stillness.
Mandy Benedict is a certified Conscious Transformation trainer and energy practitioner. In addition, she is the owner of Ruggs Benedict in Vail, Colorado, where she helps the business thrive by creating a strong network of relationships.